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Inspired by: Last Kiss -- TAYLOR SWIFT
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LAST KISS – A Story by HALEY HOLLYWOOD :)
He smiled again and turned to hug me. "I never could've done it without you."
I wrapped my arms around his shoulders uneasily and took a deep breath.
This was dangerous.
Getting used to this was dangerous.
I refused to let myself fall backwards. I needed to learn to accept the fact that we were friends, and that was all we could be.
Pulling away, I looked down at the ground in an attempt to sort my thoughts.
Just friends. Well, not even that really.
"It's good that you don't have to worry about staying on the team anymore. That had to be a lot of pressure, worrying about that."
"Yeah, it was," Ryan replied, his voice drifting off.
Several moments passed without either of speaking. I was about to suggest that I get going, when Ryan spoke again.
"Meg," he continued, as I faced him. "Can we put this all behind us?"
I paused, confused. "What do you mean? You staying on the team?"
"No, it's not that at all... Everything that's happened between us for the past few months. The breakup, fights, lies, games... all of it."
"Oh, Ryan, I -"
"I know I told you last night that I was worried about the team and my meetings this morning, but there was more to it than that. I just kept thinking about how when we broke up, I let everything around me fall apart and I don't want that to happen again. I lost you, the game, school, my friends... I don't want to be that guy again."
"You aren't that guy and you won't be."
"I hope not, because I don't think I can do it all again."
He looked away from me and then met my eyes.
"I don't want to do this anymore," he said, his voice a mere whisper as he shook his head.
I just stared at him, confused. And when he didn't say anything else, I panicked.
"What? This?" I asked, motioning to the two of us, sitting here. "Oh, uh ok. I can go," I said, moving to get up off the bench. I wasn't sure where that sudden thought had come from, but I'd rather leave than get in another fight.
"No, it's not that," Ryan replied, reaching for my hand to stop me.
I turned to face him, surprised by his touch.
As I looked down at where his hand rested on mine, Ryan removed his hand and looked down at the pavement. Meanwhile, silence stretched before us.
"Meg," he started, taking a deep breath as I looked up at him. "I just want to make sure that you know I didn't mean a word of what I said last night."
"You don't have to explain a-"
"No, please. I have to say this... Last night, when I yelled at you, it wasn't because I was angry. honestly, I was nervous about those meetings and I was afraid of what would happen if I messed everything up again. But even more than all of that, I was worried about what would happen to us. I wasn't sure if we could be together or how we could be together. I'd been fighting it for a while now, but seeing you leave last night... that really did it for me."
"Yeah?" I asked, staring back at him as tears filled my eyes.
"I want to be with you, Megs. I need to be."
I gasped, totally taken by surprise, as my tears started to fall.
After all of this, he was finally saying the words that I had waited to hear all along.
"Hey, please don't cry," Ryan said, his voice low and steady as he moved closer to me on the bench and wiped the tears away, one by one.
"I just wasn't expecting that," I whispered. "I wasn't sure if you would ever take me back, not after what I did."
Ryan nodded, kissing the exact spot where a tear fell on my cheek, before leaning back to look into my eyes again.
"I never did it to hurt you, Ry. I just wanted to be with you so badly that I didn't know what else to do."
He smiled and then laughed before speaking. "Trust me, I know the feeling."
I smiled as he wrapped his arms around me and kissed me.
My heart raced and I thought I couldn't breathe.
But when he pulled away, there was still a nagging question left in the back of my mind.
"So you forgive me?" I asked halfheartedly, but still a little desperate for that one last piece of information.
"There's nothing to forgive."
"Aw, come on, Ry. You know there is."
"Fine, but only if you forgive me."
"But you didn't do anything," I replied, confused.
"Well, if we're being honest, I did try to sabotage your relationship with Jake," he said, laughing.
"Ry!" I shouted, laughing as I playfully shoved him. "Seriously!"
"Okay, fine. I'll be serious," he said, throwing his hands up in the air as he stood up off the bench and offered me a hand to get up.
"Everything's fine and no one needs to be forgiven," Ryan continued, wrapping his arms around my waist. "We both got a little crazy and went to some extremes, but we had good intentions, so none of that matters. I don't want to worry about any of that anymore. I just want to be with you. That's all. Is that okay?"
"I guess so," I replied, laughing a little.
"Good," Ryan said, smiling as he pushed a stray hair behind my ear.
Then, I took a deep breath and spoke the words that had been on my mind constantly for the past few months.
The feeling that had driven all of my actions...
"I love you, Ry."
The words sounded so familiar, yet if felt like it had been so long since I had heard them.
Either way, the feeling had never left.
And then, I head the only words that I had ever wanted to hear.
"I love you too, Meg."
And then, he was kissing me.
A kiss that I was certain wouldn't be our last.
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